June is a busy month at Grace. Someone once told me that things would slow down after Easter. That person lied.
As I tend to do with my overly confident and zealous ambition, I think I bit off more than I can chew. Crafts at VBS? Great, I would love to lead those! Opening of VBS? Sure, I’d love to be in charge of the skits. Co-captain a summer of stewardship preaching series and other activities? Sounds like fun!
But then there is also the unexpected. A funeral/prayer service to lead in my supervisor’s out-of-town absence. A needed trip to Willmar for more VBS supplies. Projects taking longer than planned. Making brown paper vines to hang in the rainforest with a cordless drill and masking paper that spans the length of the hallway. (Okay, that was not unexpected but totally necessary.)
Today, as my preparation and role in the funeral/prayer service was made known, I started to stress. I was ready to curl up on the floor, rock back and forth, and cry. I don’t think I hid my hyperventilating very well; Kendall offered to switch Sundays so I would not have to preach this Sunday. I denied that I needed to do that. Tammy offered to have our Christian Education board help me set up for crafts. I said, eh, well, I would do it myself.
“Lindsay’s having a hard time giving up control,” Kendall surmised.
Oh my. So true. It was like a CPE revelation.
I have a hard time giving up control.
Something to work on. Sharing control. Not maintaining control of things that I don’t need to control.
I ended up accepting Kendall’s help. Giving up control of Sunday’s sermon in exchange for control of next week’s. A trade but a step in the right direction. One that helps muchisimo for the current stress level. I will, however, continue to use the cordless drill to make vines for the rainforest. Very necessary.
there's no place like gnome. 
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